Hello again!

Actually I’ve submitted an entry on this blog just now, but i feel like doing a new one. This time i guess i’d better spill out about to whom my heart truly lies. Now i realise that there’s no turning back, because she’ no longer my crush, but she’s someone whom I would do anything for.

Let me explain a little bit about my friendship and her. I met her two year ago in Foundation 2, during the Eagle-In-You Permata Program. At that time she was in my session, in my group, and how coincidence it was, she was in my team! The first time I talked to her when my partner was out to the toilet and she was sitting quite nearby to me, so I talked to her for the first time. She could draw well, her drawing was excellent. The very next day she started talking to me first, asking about my results and after that we continued on chatting. After the durian competition, she offered me a sweet. Starting from that point, I started to have a crush on her.

Back in UTP, i got to know her well through chatting in ym and gtalk and events and extra co-curricular activites. As time passes by we started to be quite close, even though up to now she’s remain as a shy girl. There were several occasions where I could get myself really close to her. Her attitude is very easy to predict, however her mind and heart are complex. Until now I cant really understand her eventhough I can predict her reactions and movements.

But what importants now is that as time passes by, that crush-kinda feeling is becoming dominant and i would say, it’s no longer a crush. Last time when i have a crush on her I blush a lot wherever she’s around, but not now. I think maybe because these days I really dedicate myself for her. I would do everything for her, eventhough I dont know why.

Time is running out. Another 6 more months she will be away for Internship. Another 12 more months I would be away for Intership, which adds up to a year. But what is for sure, I’m not interested in a serious relationship (maksudnye tak maen kapel2 la). For the meantime I guess it’s better for us just to be friends, but I would really grateful if she could be as caring as some of my friends like Dyla and Hadani. The only thing that she lacks is that she doesnt seem to be really care of me, unlike some of my friends. I hope she will change, there is always time for a change.

I think that would be all for now, I’d better stop here before saying more nonsense. Till we see each other, cya!

Signing out,

Hafiz Potter

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